Here in Kentucky, spring has finally made an appearance. Of course, it is Kentucky. So, even though the last several days (maybe even the last week!) have been absolutely gorgeous, it’s entirely possible that winter could show up again at any moment. The changeability of Kentucky weather really makes those of us who are native Kentuckians live in the moment. You have to enjoy nice weather because it could, and does sometimes, change within minutes.
My little family has been outside enjoying the warm weather for days now. I’ve gotten into the habit of taking an afternoon walk with Marci and later going to the park with Sean and Stella. Both are my favorite for different reasons. When I walk with Marci I get a little alone time (perfect for recharging my introvert self). Sometimes I spend this time just listening to nature, but mostly I listen to audiobooks. I discovered my love for audiobooks when I started commuting longer than 10 minutes andnow I listen to them all the time. It’s a great way to get things done while also “reading.” But I digress… These peaceful walks with just my thoughts or a book are a sharp contrast to walking with a toddler. Walking with a toddler is so much fun. Stella is amazed by everything. Puddles, grass, flowers, worms, birds… they’re all new to her and watching her discover all of the newness of the world is so gratifying. Her amazement makes me appreciate and see things in a new way. Her discovery of all the newness is the real spring.
It probably comes as no surprise to most of you to learn that I’m an introvert. In fact, if you’ve been reading the blog for a while you may remember that I’ve mentioned that fact before. Under the very best circumstances, being extremely busy or very social for extended periods of time is exhausting to me.
I realized earlier this week that having a newborn exacerbates my normal introvert tendencies to super-introvert level. I think its because there’s really no alone time when you have a newborn; either the newborn is with you or the toddler is with you or you have visitors (who are hopefully not expecting you to entertain them). Regardless, you’re never alone and if there’s one thing I know about myself its how much I need alone time.
That realization led me to think about being an introvert in general. On one hand, I’m very glad that in the last several years introverts have been getting a lot of attention. Growing up, everyone thought I was shy and a loner. I neither of those, but being categorized that way from an early age shaped my personality. From that perspective, I’m glad that introversion is becoming more widely acknowledged and understood. BUT I also feel like being an introvert is that “cool” thing to be right now. I just want to go on record now as having been an introvert before it was mainstream.
Coincidentally, a few days after those 3 a.m. realizations, I came across a very interesting link on the Modern Mrs. Darcy blog (have you discovered that blog? No? You should totally read it.). The link was to a blog called Introvert, Dear and was to a post about the 4 types of introverts. That’s right. Apparently, there’s not just one kind of introvert. The four types identified are social, thinking, anxious, and restrained. I took the quiz at Scientific American and my type of introversion is thinking. I read the description of thinking introversion and it’s basically a description of me. So, at least for me, the quiz is accurate. Even if it’s not accurate, it’s pretty fun.
At times, I think everyone is a little a off-balance. Of course, that’s what this blog is all about. Finding balance. I wish I could say that I have it all figured out, but I don’t.
For the last couple of weeks, I have just been swamped with work. It has definitely gotten in the way of the rest of my life. And, now, I’m definitely feeling off-balance. I know what I need is to have a day or two alone to recharge my introvert self. Unfortunately, that day wasn’t today and it’s not going to be tomorrow.
Luckily, I have a developed introvert survival skills for over programmed times like this. Well, it’s really only one skill. And that one skill is to make sure I have at least an hour to myself with no planned activities everyday in which I just do whatever I feel like doing. For the last week, that one hour has been pretty much exclusively yoga-related. I think that’s really a very good indication of the state of mind I’ve been in lately.
I’ve been stressed. I’ve been frazzled. I’ve just been… out of sorts.
Even though those few yoga hours I’ve had the last week haven’t been quite enough, they’ve definitely helped. I can feel myself slowly coming back to my equilibrium.
Getting my balance back.
I’m not there yet, but it’s coming.