Weekend Thoughts

At the end of a long and awesome weekend I feel the need to share some thoughts, but I’m so tired I lack the coherence to actually write a post. So… here we go:

  • Morning yoga is the best. I should do that more. And also become a morning person so I can do that more.

  • Cheescake Factory isn’t worth the wait.
  • Waiting for the Cheescake Factory while shopping in H&M is totally worth it. 

Stella got the cutest sweater of all time at H&M. I got nothing. Because this location doesn’t have a maternity  section. I’m happy-sad about that. My wallet is just happy about it.

  • The mall is a great place to wander around/get exercise when it’s really cold and you have a toddler.
  • I feel super lame for writing that last bullet point.
  • Sticking stickers on your sister’s temporary home is the most fun.

  • Knitting buttonholes is hard. I’ve already ripped that section out and redone it twice. Third times a charm, right?
  • Toddlers love yarn. Much like kittens.

  • Birth planning is exciting. Had a great meeting with my doula tonight and suddenly everything seems very real.
  • Yay winter! We’re likely to get our first winter storm late tonight/early tomorrow morning and I’m so excited!

Pregnancy update: 25 weeks

Last time, I talked about how I finally got a baby bump. I’m still super excited about that, but now I’m starting to worry. Fair warning this is going to sound very very vain/weird. I’m worried that my belly button is going to turn into an outie. This didn’t happen when I was pregnant with Stella and it looks like it might this time and I don’t really know why I’m worried about it. But I am. I like having an innie belly button.

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Not quite a possible outie belly button selfie. 

Anyway… it’s been a big week. I had my last ultrasound of the pregnancy earlier this week and baby is still a girl (and everything else they check for during the ultrasound is good, too). I got some nice ultrasound pictures that look vaguely baby-esque to me but apparently look like an actual baby to other people. And, most importantly of all, I found out my midwife will let me eat a very specific breakfast to do the glucose tolerance test instead of drinking that absolutely disgusting and probably carcinogenic drink.


How far along| 25 weeks. Yikes! We should probably reassemble the crib or pick a name or something.

Baby’s Size| Ultrasound says almost 2 pounds. So maybe almost 2 pounds. 

Weight Gain| Who knows? Not me.

Sleep| Would be better if Stella hadn’t recently decided that she could only sleep when directly on my face.

Clothes| With today’s weather (high of 34 degrees!), all I really want to wear is a Snuggie.

Cravings| Peanut butter. Particularly crunchy peanut butter. This is really weird because I actually hate crunchy peanut butter. It’s like whoever was making the peanut butter was too lazy to finish blending it.

Food Aversions| Good news! Not broccoli anymore. We’ve moved on to cabbage. And chicken, which smells like a dead animal to me (that’s what it is… so…).

Symptoms| None really. Unless you count the terrible calf and foot cramps that showed up yesterday.

Movement| The difference in movement between Garfield and Stella is ridiculous. I not sure if there’s actually a difference or if I’m just noticing the movement more, but whoa. There’s just so much.

Belly Button| In… for now.

Baby’s Position| According to the ultrasound, head down. Which would be awesome and exciting if I was 40 weeks pregnant, not so much at 25 weeks.

Highlight of the Week| Final ultrasound and finding out that I don’t have to drink the neon orange glucose drink.

What I miss|  Not waking up with a terrible calf cramp.

30 day yoga challenge: Day 9

I’m 9 days into the 30 day yoga challenge and I have to say it’s going… well. Kind of. For the first 5 days or so, I was killing the challenge. There was yoga-ing, there was documenting, and then…. Then there was a stomach virus. A really bad stomach virus. I don’t get sick often (other than colds) and I don’t have morning sickness when pregnant (that sound is me knocking on ALL THE WOOD), so having a stomach virus was pretty debilitating for me. I came home from work on Friday mid-morning, got into bed, and basically didn’t get out of bed until Saturday evening.

Needless to say, there was no yoga on Friday or Saturday or Sunday. Really there wasn’t much of anything on those days. Except for self-pity. There was lots of self-pity.

Now the virus is gone, the self pity is (mostly) gone, and the yoga is back. Sean and I have rearranged our evening childcare duties so that I have time for exercise, yoga, and hypnobabies (and sometimes blogging…). It’s been an adjustment, but its working pretty well and we’re both being flexible (yoga pun intended).

Here’s a selfie from tonight’s practice and, if you look closely, you can see my newly gained baby bump!

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Pregnancy Update: 22 weeks

Guys! I finally got a baby bump!

Just when I was starting to be convinced that I was just going to look chubby for this entire pregnancy, a bump appeared. I don’t think I’ve ever been more excited to have a round belly. Did that sound vain? I feel like that sounded more vain and vapid than I meant for it to. Oh well. Just know that what I meant was I’m super excited that people can finally tell that I’m pregnant by looking at me instead of wondering if I’m pregnant or just had a big lunch.

In case you missed it, here’s my last (also first!) update for this pregnancy.

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Le Bump

And now for the actual update:

How far along| 22 weeks. More than halfway through!

Baby’s Size| According to the interwebz, about the size of a spaghetti squash. According to my back, much much larger than a spaghetti squash.

Weight Gain| 10-ish pounds. This one is hard since I don’t ever weigh myself so I’m not sure how much I weighed pre-pregnancy.

Sleep| Oh, the insomnia. Seriously. Is this normal?

Clothes| All the maternity pants.

Cravings| Orange sherbet. I had a stomach virus this weekend and was reunited with orange sherbet, which I haven’t had since I was about 6, and now I’m obsessed with it.

Food Aversions| Still broccoli.

Symptoms| Back pain. Some heartburn (for the first time ever, btw).

Movement| So so much. Stella has now been getting kicked and she’s not really a fan.

Belly Button| In.

Baby’s Position| Who knows? She moves a lot.

Highlight of the Week| Getting the baby bump!

What I miss|  Still booze. Also sleeping for more than a 2-3 hour stretch at a time.

It’s baaack!

That’s right. My now somewhat annual 30 day yoga challenge has returned! This is when I challenge myself to practice yoga for at least 20 minutes a day and document it in someway. Last time I did the challenge, the documentation was to take a picture of a pose AND blog about each practice. I’m under no illusions that that’s going to happen this time around, so I altered the challenge a bit. Starting today look for semi-regular posts about my yoga practice.

To ease into this (and, yes, I did have a yoga practice today), I wanted to share my home yoga “studio.” It’s in our guest room/office/yoga studio and I kind of love it. So much, in fact, that when Garfield (that’s what we’re calling new baby right now) arrives, she and Stella will be sharing a room just so I don’t have to give up my Martha space. There’s nothing fancy about this space. It’s just tidy and has enough room for me to roll and my mat and practice in peace.

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Late night thoughts

Last night I slept terribly. It was a million degrees in my room. Except not really. In reality, it was cool enough that the a/c wouldn’t turn on unless I set the thermostat at 66. And even that wasn’t cool enough. Eventually I turned off the a/c and just opened the window. It was only moderately cooler outside, but between the breeze and the fan pointed directly at me, I eventually cooled off enough to sleep a bit… before I woke up sweating again. Thanks pregnancy hormones.

So, as it turns out, I was awake most of the night. And my thoughts turned, as thoughts tend to do in the middle of the night, to life. I did a lot of thinking about a lot of things last night, but upon reflection this morning I realized most of my thoughts were about my career.

If you’ve been following the blog for a while you know that I’m an attorney. What you probably don’t know (because I’ve been a terrible blogger for the last 22 months or so) is that I’m not a practicing attorney anymore. I did let you all know that going back to work when Stella was tiny was really really difficult for me. And I let you know that my law firm was awesome and allowed me to work an 80% schedule instead of full time. What I didn’t let you know what that even that wasn’t enough. Practicing law in the private sector is hard, y’all, and when you add an infant into the mix the billable hour, marketing, and publication expectations become downright overwhelming. In the end, though, it was the stress and another big life event that made me reevaluate the kind of life I wanted to lead. As it turns out as much as I loved practicing law (and I really did), I didn’t love working 50+ hours a week (yes, even at 80%), still not having time to complete all my work, and having no time to spend with my family or with myself.

So, in February I started looking for a new job. A job outside of the legal field. Coincidentally, at about the same time I started job searching, I got a call from the HR director my alma mater. She was letting me know that there was an opening as an investigator in their Equal Opportunity Office and wanted to see if I might be interested.  My legal practice was focused mainly on employment and higher education law so investigating claims of employment discrimination in an higher education institution was kind of perfect. Long story short, I was interested, I interviewed, I got the job, and for the last 7 months or so that’s what I’ve been very happily doing.

I love not being in the private sector. I took a pay cut to move, but I have tons of free time, lots of vacation days (I’m on Fall Break right now!), and great benefits. So, why was I up all night thinking about my career? Because I’m having a career upheaval again. Two positions that I’m VERY interested in have opened up at the university where I work. I’ve applied for both, interviewed for one and will probably be selected to interview for the other. Here’s the problem: I’m not sure which one I really want. The positions represent different future career paths and I’m having a really hard time deciding which path I want to follow.

I know that I’m the only one who can decide which way to go. I just needed to get things down on paper (or rather, on screen) to help myself think things through. Either way, or neither way, 2014 is shaping up to be a year of HUGE change for me.

Pregnancy Update: 19 Weeks

If you’ve been following me for a while, you know I did these little updates often (weekly even!) when I was pregnant with Stella. This is the first one for this pregnancy and I can already assure you that weekly updates will almost definitely NOT be forthcoming. I’ve got a toddler this time and I’m just busier this time around. And there’s the small matter of how I keep forgetting to document this pregnancy. Seriously. Sean just took the first pregnancy picture of this pregnancy about 20 minutes ago specifically so I could post it here. Why do I feel like poor Baby 2 will be lucky to have half the documentation of their babyhood as Stella does?

Anyway, here’s all the gory details:

How far along| 19 weeks. I think. I’m really bad at keeping track of things this pregnancy

Baby’s Size| Big enough to kick my bladder a lot.

Weight Gain| 6-ish pounds.  

Sleep| NOT ENOUGH. I don’t remember having insomnia when I was pregnant with Stella.

Clothes| All maternity pants.

Cravings| Yogurt and granola.

Food Aversions| Broccoli and anything that smells like broccoli.

Symptoms| Back pain, I guess? Sometimes.

Movement| Just starting up but definitely there.

Belly Button| In.

Baby’s Position| At the anatomy scan this week, she was basically bent in half. Her feet were basically behind her head… and that’s why I have another ultrasound in 6 weeks.

Highlight of the Week| Learning the baby’s sex.

What I miss|  Booze. There’s so many good pumpkin and fall-y beers available right now and I can have none.

And finally the aforementioned first and only picture of me pregnant:

 

Hopefully, by the time I get around to doing another update I’ll look more pregnant and less like I’ve been overeating for the last several months.